My Fight


I do not seek for your approval

I do not need you to understand

You can’t know what I feel

You will never know who I am

You will surely judge me,

But it’s just the false-self that you see

My true-self I lost before I even became “me”

Stop pretending to comprehend my struggle

For I see your ignorance, and it only creates more trouble

I accepted the fact that it’s me against the world

Therefore, I do not need your sympathy or advice

Trust me, I’ll just let it burn

I know too much to let go

Something none of you will ever know

How can you claim to understand,

When you can’t even see through my mask?

Do not give me your selfish advice

Just to make yourself look nice

I do not need your empty opinion

Since this is, indeed, my fight

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Find Yourself


People forget that we can basically be whoever we want to be in life. You don’t have to be a specific way in order to be part of this world. Although they want us to believe that we have to act or think a certain way in order to fit in, people crave diversity and change. Humans are becoming like robots, and we just do what we have to do because we feel like that’s what needs to be done. Like a robot, we try to fit in society; we get up every morning, go to school, go to work, chit-chat with a couple people, go home, eat, sleep, and the next day we repeat because we think that’s who we’re supposed to be. There is no variety in that, and when all of us start doing the same thing, just because we feel like we need to in order to fit in, it creates a mindless and lost society.

People often look to find themselves but, what if you could create yourself? You can only look or find something when it already exists, but you can always create something new, different, and unique. The future does not exist yet, so how can you find yourself in the future? You can create yourself for the future. We do not exist yet in the future, which gives us the opportunity to create whoever we want to be in the future. For example, we do not exist yet tomorrow (we can only hope to exist), so we can create who we want to be tomorrow. We can teach ourselves as many skills as we’d like, gain as much knowledge we’d like, and become whoever we want to be. Who would you like to be in this life? Look at yourself like an empty canvas, and create whatever you want, express however you want to express. Like the different colors you would use on a painting to express different ideas and feelings, use different things in life to create and express yourself. Don’t get caught up in the mindless routine society wants you to be part of; think independently. Unfortunately, the 99% is part of the mindless society, and the 1% creates, rebel, and step out of the box.

It’s easy to get caught in something that seems like the normal thing to do. I tried being part of the mainstream for three months, and I felt empty. It felt like being stuck in an automatic life where all you had to do is go with the flow. It was a place without excitement, and it was boring. My mind is not programmed like that; I like originality, I like creating, I like thinking, I like diversity. This is one of the reasons why I need solitude; in solitude my great ideas arise and my imagination runs wild. In this society, it’s hard to be alone because people constantly expect you to be involved. If you’re not involved, they think you’re unfriendly, rude, etc. but they don’t understand that some people need to be alone in order to thrive in this crazy world. Some people, and most creative people, are introverted like me, and we need our own time and space to cope with ourselves and the world around us (ex. Einstein). We need time and space to create ourselves because in solitude is where we can unmask.

“The mind is sharper and keener in seclusion and uninterrupted solitude. Originality thrives in seclusion free of outside influences beating upon us to cripple the creative mind. Be alone—that is the secret of invention: be alone, that is when ideas are born.” ~ Nikola Tesla

Why Did I Stop Writing?


The reason why I haven’t been writing lately is because I have a lot going on and everything is moving pretty fast. Sometimes I feel like I miss out on certain days because the days go by so fast and before you know it, it’s the end of the year. Like always, thing were so different compared to last year; they changed for the better and worse. I wanted to do a lot of things, and I had a lot of ideas, but nothing really worked out because somewhere on the road, I lost my inspiration and motivation. I had too many things on my mind, and I was busy with too many things at once, but now I finally settled down and I can focus on my own things again.

One of the things I missed the most was writing because it is the best way of expressing other than art. Writing inspires me and gives me ideas. It challenges me to think about certain topic and ideas and motivates me to use my critical thinking skills. It allows me to be myself and be free without feeling limited or trapped in box. I feel complete when I get to express myself because all we really want in the end is to be understood and heard. When I don’t get to express myself in the right way, I feel trapped and misunderstood, which leads to depression.

This leads to another incident that happened during the time that I stopped writing. I went to see a personal counselor, and I was diagnosed with depression. I still cannot figure out what my specific reason for being depressed was, but in short, I would say that life, itself, made me sink into depression. I do not want to go into a lot of details about this, but I do want to say that going to a counselor and talking about certain stuff helped somewhere and made me feel less alone while dealing with my problems. I finally feel like myself again, so I am back. I am back to writing, researching, and publishing my ideas and reasoning. I am back to supporting logic, reasoning, and the science community. I am back to spreading knowledge.

Good Without God (Absence of Clothing)


For a while now, I have been looking for cool science t-shirts, and I have had difficulty finding them. They were either too goofy and just too expensive. However, I came across this site called Absence of Clothing, and found their stuff pretty interesting. Since there is a limited amount of science and atheist accessories and clothes out there, I contacted them and decided to support and help promote their products. I think a clothing line to spread an idea or message is one of the best ways to do it because people never stop buying fashion. Our society is so focused on outer appearances, and we put so much energy into looking good that there is no way that one could miss a message on a nice looking shirt, hat, wristband, etc. Absence of Clothing is a great way to raise awareness and fight for equality in our society. It reminds us that we are free to express our ideas and opinions, and that we are not limited to one idea and dogma. It can also help in the closet atheists realize that it is perfectly okay not to be part of a dogma and think independently. Furthermore, it also emphasizes the importance of science in the world and raises awareness to the different and educating religious and scientific debates going on. We have the right to speak up, and we should not be afraid to show our logic an reasoning to the world.

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Let’s support reasoning and science for a better and educated future!

Jealousy


Jealousy is a somewhat normal thing when it comes to couples. People that are afraid of losing someone or one another will automatically feel the jealousy rising.  According to the article “Jealousy in Relationships: The Gender Factor,” “Both genders become jealousy when they fear losing something or someone valuable to them.” People look for all kinds of reasons to justify their jealousy. One of the abused excuses is “I’m jealous because I care about you,” which, in my opinion, is complete nonsense. Jealousy has nothing to do with caring about someone, but everything to do with being selfish.

Although jealousy serves human survival, it is not always healthy for relationships. According to Robert L. Leahy in the article Jealousy is a Killer: How to Break Free from Your Jealous Feelings “jealousy leads us to focus only on the negative.” This can cause any relationship to end. Jealousy has to do with fear: the fear of losing someone we want to hang on to, the fear that they will find someone better; it has everything to do with oneself and nothing to do with caring for the other person. Jealousy is not the same thing as love. Sometimes, we think that by feeling jealous (by being possessive or wanting ownership over the person), we love them. Jealousy is not love; it’s the fear being abandoned.

If you cared about someone, why would you care if the person is flirting with someone else? You will only care because you feel threatened. “Jealousy is conceptualized as a cognitive, emotional, and behavioral response to a relationship threat. In the case of sexual jealousy, this threat emanates from knowing or suspecting that one’s partner has had (or desires to have) sexual activity with a third party. In the case of emotional jealousy, an individual feels threatened by her or his partner’s emotional involvement with and/or love for a third party” (Guerrero, Spitzberg, & Yoshimura, 2004, page 311). For example, if your partner flirts with someone else, you will probably feel ditched and disrespected. You will become jealous because, why do they need to flirt with someone else when they have you? In this case, it has everything to do with one’s pride.You will complain because you feel like you deserve to be treated better, but, again, who is the judge here? You are. You think that you deserve the best and no one else does. You think that you own the person and no one else can have them, which are all selfish thoughts and reasons.

Jealousy is not linked to self-esteem in particular. Jealousy is not an indication of lack of self esteem. In some cases, jealousy can actually ‘reflect high self-esteem: “I won’t allow myself to be treated this way”’ (Robert L. Leahy). In this case, jealousy has to do with one’s high value and ego.

However, jealousy can be linked to self-pity. When one feels threatened one will feel like the victim. The moment you feel like the victim you will start feeling sorry for yourself. Self-pity is a weakness and it will easily trigger depression. Tom Robins once wrote: “All depression has its roots in self-pity, and all self-pity is rooted in people taking themselves too seriously.” Rise above victimizing yourself in every situation. It will help you let go of things, and it will help with your personal growth.

Before you state: “I’m jealous because I care about you,” ask yourself do you really care about the person or just yourself? Before you state: “I’m jealous because I do not want to lose you,” ask yourself why don’t you want to lose them? Is it for your own selfish reason or does it go deeper than that? Sometimes we are so caught up in our own world and our own wants and needs that we forget to consider what other people might want. It’s always “don’t hurt me,” don’t leave me,” don’t disrespect me,” etc. and all of these things have to do with that person’s own ego and own pride. Being selfless is a tough thing to do. Sometimes we don’t even realize that we’re being selfish; I experience that with my mom every day. In her mind she cares about her family, but in reality it is always about her. It’s always about how she feels, what she wants, and how she is the victim in every situation. Even though she does not admit it, her image and authority are the two most important things to her; much like a dictatorship. Every day I tell myself: “That’s exactly who you don’t want to be.”

My mom get’s jealous very easily; even to the point where she sees me as a competition. She’s a great example of what jealousy can do to a relationship. Whenever my dad and I talk, she complains that I get all of my dad’s attention. A couple days ago, she told him that she doesn’t like the fact that he’s spending so much time with me. Her reason for telling my dad such a thing was: “I care about you and I need your attention.” Is that the real reason? I think she just contradicted herself with that statement. She cares, but she wants attention, or perhaps she just wanted attention? It had everything to do with her feelings, and nothing with neither my dad nor me.

In my opinion, when you care about someone, you don’t have to be jealous. It helps to realize that you do not own the person, and you cannot tell them what to do because they are not a robot. “We don’t own each other, but we may make affirmations about our commitment to each other” (Leahy). When we realize that jealousy has more to do with our own self-image than with the other person (we think we care about), it becomes easier to realize that jealousy is a selfish act. It’s normal to feel jealous sometimes, but it is also important to acknowledge it. This might prevent us from jealous behavior, which will most likely ruin the relationship. According to Leahy, “It’s important to realize that your relationship is more likely to be jeopardized by your jealous behavior—such as continual accusations, reassurance-seeking, pouting, and acting-out.” However, when we acknowledge the fact that we feel jealous, we can choose how to act upon that emotion.

I view jealousy as a weakness because it ruins so many things, even when we do not realize that it does. Jealous behavior kills so many relationships because it makes the other person feel trapped, unappreciated, and sometimes it might even trigger feelings of not being good enough. Jealousy is a self-fulfilling prophecy and, as mentioned before, a very selfish one. We cannot force people to satisfy us, we cannot force people to care, we cannot force people to be ours, and we surely cannot force people to love us; we can only hope. Don’t love someone just because you want to be loved in return, but love them because you genuinely love them and care about them regardless of the rejection or pain it may cause. Love unconditionally.

Reference List:

Hoyt, Alia. “Jealousy in Relationships: The Gender Factor.” HowStuffWorks. HowStuffWorks.com. Web. 24 Aug. 2014. <http://science.howstuffworks.com/life/inside-the-mind/emotions/jealousy1.htm&gt;.

Robert L. Leahy. “Jealousy Is a Killer: How to Break Free from Your Jealous Feelings.” Psychology Today: Health, Help, Happiness Find a Therapist. Web. 24 Aug. 2014.

Root of All Evil


Some people say that humans are “the evil” on our planet. I beg to differ; we have created more than there ever was before. What would this planet be without us? Our kind is the most intelligent species on earth. As complex homo sapiens we have the ability to think, reason, feel, create; we know the difference between right and wrong.

Despite all that, we are still surrounded by “evil.” This generates the question:  What makes an intelligent race act like fools? What is the root of all evil? The great thinker, Plato, once said “Ignorance, the root and stem of all evil.” Religious people say: “The love of money is the root of all evil,” while Mark Twain said: “The lack of money is the root of all evil.” Some say: “Religion is the root of all evil.” When comparing these statements to the world, we realize that there is more than just one root or stem that provokes “evil.”  Just like the biologist, Richard Dawkins, in the book The God Delusion stated, “… for no one thing is the root of all anything.”

I do not view the world in the concept of good and evil. Judgments of good and evil are subjective; your right is my left.  According to Michael Shermer, morality is a set of relative social practices that promote the survival and successful reproduction of the species, or even multiple cooperating species. When we try to define exactly what morals are, we are placing our own judgments upon others. We then expect others to live according to our personal principles.  Therefore, you are deciding for yourself whether someone else is moral or immoral, according to your choices. This is not a useful method for determining morals because they are based on personal and subjective beliefs, which promotes bias. In conclusion, there is no absolute morality.

So what is the root of all evil on this planet? There is no root. People are not evil. Someone once said: “Try to imagine a world without religion. Who in this world would point out the existence of evil? They’d call it a mistake, undesirable, unworkable, they’d seek to find better alternatives, but without a religion they could not call it evil and condemn it for eternity.” We are human beings, and we are still evolving, and we are still learning; we are not evil. People are neither born evil nor are they born perfect. Ignorance, circumstances, culture, religion, environment, these are all factors that make us who we are.